It's a full Sunday

T and I just wanted to spend a weekend together... so we did.

We continued to talk about our little kitty and how much we missed her.

And we prayed.  A lot.

Finally he wanted to get out and DO something and I just so happened to have a gift card for Speed Zone so off we went.

Played $35 in games!

Then two rounds of miniature golf...

Just in time to change and get to soccer

goofball looks ready doesn't he?

Little cutie played a great game

Thanks for the great weekend. I love EVERY second I spend with you!!

The depth of your love is beautiful... and hard

Oh my sweet Tristan...

Mommy is SO sorry.  Well, sorry and not sorry.  I'm sorry that your heart is broken from giving up this sweet kitten. I had no idea how much you loved her.  I had no idea.. that you would cry ... for 6 hours straight and be completely inconsolable.

I knew you liked her, but I didn't know you LOVED her.  It was 2 days.  Just two days of having her yet your heart opened up so big, big enough to grab a little kitten that loved you back.

You said "But Mommy, she is there when I come out of the shower, she is my friend.  Now she's gone and I'm all alone."

Mommy's heart broke.  Just broke.  

When I was little I always had a kitty and it's what I've always wanted for you.  Maybe someday Daddy won't get so sick.  Someday.

When you came to my office I had no idea you cried the whole way there.

When you handed her to my friend Vicki ... I had no idea that you would try and be my little strong man, and not cry.  You would TRY to do the right thing.  I'm so proud of you for being so strong.

I'm also so proud of you for loving her.  We can't have 1,000 animals and trust me, I would if I could.  But, we can't.

So, while I'm sorry that I hurt you by taking your kitty away, I'm not sorry. I taught you that sometimes, we have to do HARD, HARD things in order to do the right thing, the brave thing, the GOOD thing.

You dreamt of her all night, cried in your sleep and kept waking up and asking where she was.  It was literally the worst thing I've done with you to date because you were fully aware and fully in the moment,

I want to give you everything this world has to offer.. but sometimes, I have to let life win - because, well.. a lot of times it does.  It's how you deal with it that matters.

I love you more than anything on this planet.  I know how much you loved "Tiger" and so you know, my heart broke because I loved her too!!  She will have a great life and that's because we were brave enough to save her and to let her go.

You are worth every tear little Tiger, we love you.  Have a great life baby girl!!

Love, Tristan & Mommy

Last night with us

I love that God uses us to help animals...

but I cry myself to sleep EVERY time because... well, I just can't help but love them!

I will miss you "Tiger" and so will T!!

We have ourselves another Tiger

And we've found her a home already!!  Sad to give her up so soon, but I know it's best!!!

It's a PURPLE DAY

Every day Tristan gets a behavior color... he's done pretty darn well so far...

other than last week's orange.

Now I don't expect my son to be perfect... 

BUT I DO expect him to listen and to obey his teachers.

Remember that orange last week?  Man, that was rough... cost T a lot and he so great improved...

green the rest of the week!!

This week - yellow for talking.. .then blue - which is fantastic!

What did he do yesterday?  

PURPLE!  She said she hardly ever hands those out and BOOM!  He does it!!

So proud.  Not because he is getting purple or being "perfect"

But - because he cares.  And it shows.

Not just to us...

Even impressed the teacher!!  Way to go T!!!!!!!!

An awesome Ya Ya surprise!

Some days seem like really bad days... (T got an orange at school - this is NOT good)

and then Ya Ya Deb surprised us!!

Thank you God for sparing my child and for giving me a MUCH NEEDED smile!!!

Pine Cover Mother/Son weekend - 2015

I got to school to pick up Tristan to head to Pine Cove for our annual Mother/Son retreat weekend

He got 100% on his memory verse AND a blue sticker (which means his behavior was EXCELLENT!)

So proud and such a great start to our weekend!!

We arrived the same time as Cohen...

and they made the most of their first few minutes

and played A LOT of Ga Ga (or geaux geaux ball!)

I beat ELEVEN boys - they called me THE GA GA MOM - it was hysterical!

They begged me to play all weekend!! (and man did I pay for it all that night and next morning!)

I cherish these weekends because we are outdoors and just together - no stress, no phones... just us!

Just Me... and my T!

and this causes this... at 5:30pm - he was pooped on Saturday!

But we were back up and running after 30 minutes...

time to shoot the bow and arrow!

Cutie!

and he did great shooting a bb gun!!

then of course we had to have finger lights!

Wyatt and his Mom Natalie came too

Getting ready for Pitch Black Attack!

four snow cones called for one big belly ache (hey, I warned him!!)

and then before heading home... he had to swing just ONE. MORE. TIME

thankful for these two cats for coming along.

I hope they loved it and will do it with their boys each year too!!!

Thank you so much Pine Cove, you never disappoint!!!

The thank you was sent... and just wanted you to see that your family is proud of you!

Note from Aunt Jeanne and Uncle John

And from Aunt Trisha and Uncle Mike

and Bumpa...

then there's Grandma

and Aunt Kelly and Uncle Lee

You sure are loved Bud!!

Fun Run 2015

Mrs. Hill leads the kiddos out

They are ready!!

and they're off!  Go T!

walk break...

G finishes first!!

and T is finally D-O-N-E!

So proud!!

Aunt Kimmie entertains on the swings!

Mrs. Hill brings her final kids around the last lap!

and then T gets all sorts of congratulatory hugs!

And time for the 'thank you'

Little cutie was wiped!

Thank you all for supporting him!!