It's all a juggling act

I truly pray that someday you choose to have a life filled with kids.  There is no greater joy... I mean, wait until you are at least 30, live a little and then, find your wife and GO FOR IT.

There are so many things that you don't get told anything about, you just have to deal with it.  A pregnant wife's hormones, putting the crib together, first moments, missed moments, how hard it is to motivate (ahem) certain kids around reading, school work, teachers, bullying, 1st grade. Ugh, first grade.

Now let's be realistic, it's first grade.  A grade I have already walked two kids through but now I have conveniently forgotten how to navigate.

While this seems easy...

THIS is hard...

Especially with you, my child that has no interest in school. At. all. I tried to bribe you with Poke-man cards (or however you spell that) and you said no.

Again, easy for you...

not talking is hard...

Now, I know - you have Dyslexia... it's harder for you but I cared about school and really want you to too. But I realize, I can't force that.  But, I can give incentives.  So while I'm trying to figure out chores and allowance and serving and play dates and ...and...and.. I have to find a way to motivate you to read, memorize spelling words and scripture. It's hard.  If I'm honest, I can't even remember what I've asked YOU to memorize.  Mercy.  It's just hard.

But Nugg, I'm doing the best I can.  The best to encourage, cheer and challenge.  The best to not fix your homework, let you fail and give you consequences.  And just so you know, there will be a day that you count all of the things I did wrong... and someday, as I am doing today... I am counting the million things that Bumpa and Grandma did right.

God calls us to be more like Him every day and that isn't because he's selfish or full of himself. It's because He KNOWS the more we are like him, the better our world is.  So while this is about learning and scripture and letters and numbers and Dyslexia... it's more about YOU, learning to be 150% Tristan - the best version of you that you can be.  So you know, I cried, prayed, laughed and worried every step up the way.  It's just what parents do.

For today, it all feels like too much but so you know, tomorrow... Mommy is going to run towards these challenges and help you succeed!  I love you!!!

We've got this!  Love, Mommy